Expression of my thoughts

Karen: Thanks for your comment! That made my day and I'm glad that you can relate with me. Because really, in high school it seemed like everything , at least for me, was about academics, and now in college it's that PLUS finding out what i want to do/who i want to be. I'm less concerned now about filling in certain requirements and more in tune with how i feel.

Well update on my life. Not to sound like a downer but people are pissing me off right now! I don't know if you guys ever have the same thing but being surrounded by my friends here at school for so many hours each day is sometimes draining and stressful since I can never really get away. you know like when you're with you're family you can do whatever you want, say whatever you feel? well i can't do that here at college because unlike familial love, friend-love is conditional. sometimes i feel really....i don't know how to put it...constipated? but not in the literal sense! just like my feelings feel constipated. Ughh I don't know if you understand. i guess i just need my alone time sometimes and i really wished that I had someone that i could confide in here without them judging me. but currently that seems nearly impossible.

im not sure if this "constipation" is something that exercise can fix, because Self Magazine tells me that exercise cures ALL. I hate exercising and I don't know why it always consumes me. I'm not even that concerned about my body image, but I guess it's just something that the media does to me.

i really feel anti- social but i do not know how to cope. you know that song where they say, "have you ever been alone in a crowded room?" well that's how i feel right now. well i pretty much scared all my friends away over the last ten minutes by turning anti-social and telling them to STFU.